i went downtown today where everyone's got it made. i have a new haircut and a backpack, i'm falling asleep on the sidewalk - and on the back of the bus i just stare at the floor. i've been on this ride 1,000 times before. no standard of living, no decency. oh man, i've really done it this time.
i stayed in my room all day. i read a book and tried to fall asleep - missed phone calls and a misunderstanding, good intentions but always bad endings. i'm so messed up but i don't want you here. right now i feel so dumb, i feel so unaware. someone told me that light shines in from time to time, please forgive me but lately it's been hard to find.
i see you talking but i can't concentrate. i hear nothing, just you screaming that you feel something you can't explain and that feeling bad means feeling just like everyone else.
released June 30, 2013
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